I’ve noticed as I’ve gotten older that we are all so different in so many ways. Sometimes it’s irritating because people just do not react with an open heart the way I do and I find that hard to swallow, for example; I’d give you the shirt off my back or be there when someone is down but the same cannot be said for someone else at times. This use to frustrate me to no end.
They say don’t expect anything from anyone and you’ll never be disappointed so I had adopted this philosophy and it has served me well over the years. I notice when someone does step up to the plate, I count it as a bonus and a blessing, but certainly was never expecting it. It’s the icing on the cake of life.
I think basically it’s all about boundaries. Recently something rather large and unwanted has occurred in our family and the different responses from each family member are astounding to say the least. It ranges from highly caring all the way to complete indifference but I noticed this time, instead of getting my panties in a twist, I just sat back and observed everyone and everything, absorbing it all and taking it in.
You know why I have not opened my mouth, but rather kept to myself? Because it’s none of my business how someone else reacts to an event or happening. It’s all about boundaries. If I want people to respect mine, I’ve got to respect theirs and although I’m truly disheartened and disappointed, that’s my baggage to carry around for now.
I’ve seen people say the worst of things at a bad time or the most inappropriate behavior, but I think that happens all the time. It’s all in how we deal with a tragedy. Some people just escape into their own head and it becomes all about them. Others weep openly and are there to pass out much needed love and hugs. Others are cleaning up a storm and preparing meals for the family, some are saying ridiculous unimaginable things, and others are there for moral support.
I’ve finally learned to sit back and take it all in. Watching the good, the bad, and the ugly and not even sitting in judgement – just watching how everyone is so different and how each of us handles ourselves so differently.
I’m glad and grateful to be good at matters of the heart. All the degrees in the world cannot teach you that and for this I am grateful. I just want to be the best version of myself I can be. Always evolving and growing, opening up more and more, and continuing forward on to bigger and better things in this life. And, if all I’m good at is matters of the heart, than I’m okay with that.