Writing Challenge ~ Day 10: Ashamed

Day 10.  The thing I’d be most ashamed for someone to know about me…

I think the thing I’m most ashamed of was my impulsive personality.  I USE TO BE quick to react but have worked on this over the years.  It use to be:  A situation would come up and BAM!  I was all over it.  BIG TIME, I could not control my impulses to protect the right and correct the wrong and dot the i’s and cross the t’s.  I HATED that feeling of injustice ~ where someone else says or does something so completely wrong.  These days I’ve cleaned out the cobwebs of that corner of my personality.  I have learned (and I think a big part of this comes with age) that it’s better to remain quiet and NOT react because in fact, that is what the other person is looking for to begin with.

It’s better to remain calm.  To not worry what other people think or say about you.  It’s better to just concentrate on my own self and work on bettering myself.  God knows the truth.  The truth will set you free.  As long as I know, and God knows what it is, then I’m good with that.



Writing Challenge ~ Day 9: Chang 1 thing about the world….

Day 9.  If I could change one thing about the world, it would be…..

I wish that people all had equal rights regardless of race, creed, or color.  Sexual orientation, whether you are poor, middle class, or rich.  I wish people could see each others souls rather than their outward appearance.  I wish people would not judge others based upon these things but rather the other person’s inside.  This principle is deeply rooted and important but not always respected or acknowledged.  It makes me sad all of the hatred going around based on the color of someones skin.  Or what someone’s sexual preference/orientation is – how is that anyone else’s business?

What this world needs is more LOVE ♥ and less judgement.  LIVE AND LET LIVE!


My Husband ~ My Best Friend ♥

At the suggestion of my best friend Kate, I have started a gratitude journal.  I noticed a reoccurring theme in this daily journal.  Everyday I’m thankful and full of gratitude for having my husband “Moo” or something that my husband has done for me or in a way that he has lifted me up and encouraged me.  After 25 years of being married we just keep getting stronger and stronger.

Things that my baby does for me to make me feel special include but certainly are not limited to:  Filling my car with gas, always making sure it’s got fuel in there for me to go-go-go.  ALWAYS making sure that if I didn’t cook (which is a rarity these days) to make sure that I have a frozen meal or salad to bring to work, he’ll even text me during the day to ask if I want him to pick me up dinner on the way home for my work.  He always asks if I need cash, just to have to carry around.  He picks out my clothes every night while I’m showering for work and does all the laundry for the household.  Some people might think that’s extremely weird but we have so much folded laundry in the basement that all he does is bring up jeans, undies, bra, socks, and a cozy t shirt – I do work the overnight and nobody see’s me so it’s ok to dress down.  I love that he does this for me.  I absolutely LOVE that I do not have to deal with “Laundry Mountain” nor worry about what I’m wearing to work.

Every single morning when I get home, my side of the bed is made.  I don’t know what makes him so considerate of me or what I’ve done to deserve such a sweetheart but I’m so glad he’s mine.  He treats his kids with the same love and consideration which really melts my heart.  Especially our daughter who is now serving in the US Marines.  To watch him miss her and all of her shenanigans is heart-warming.

If I’m ever taking a road trip I can ALWAYS count on a call from him checking in on me to make sure my journey is going safe.  Not only that, he encourages me to go out and do things with my DIL, with my mother, my family, and my friends.  He gets excited if I am going to the beach because he knows it’s my peaceful place I love to go.  He’s always there to check in on me.  I have to text him every night I get to work to let him know I made it safely.  If I pick up extra hours at work, like I have for October – he really babies me (which I adore).  He is not only full of loving words but his actions match.  I’ve never met a harder worker or more dedicated employee.  I am married to the love of my life and I thank God every day for putting him in my life.  I’m the luckiest girl in the world.  You could take away all we have but as long as we have each other I know things would work out just fine.

Some have said, “Well, we know who wears the pants in the family!” to me, but the truth is to be treated with kindness, you have to put out kindness and there is NOTHING I wouldn’t do for him or don’t try to do to make his life easier/better.  He is strong and opinionated, informed and intelligent- we share the pants in the family– LOL.  That’s just another reason I love him so much because he encourages me to try new things, to be myself, to help others, but he also puts me in check when I’m wrong about something.  I cannot just get away with whatever I want in this life, I have someone there to help keep me on the straight and narrow.  He’s my best friend, the best friend I’ve ever had and will ever have.  I love him more than anyone or anything.  I praise Jesus for putting this blessing in my life, I cannot imagine a life without him.  So, if by chance you are reading this “Moo”- just know that all the little things (and big things) that you do for me every day do not go unnoticed.  I appreciate you for all that you are and I am so grateful that you are my sweet baby boy- yes I said it, you are MY SWEET BABY BOY!!!! LOL!


Writing Challenge ~ Day 8: Tomorrow will be better…

Day 8.  Tomorrow will be better because today I learned …..

Today I learned that there are people out there, complete strangers that have the ability to lift me up and make me feel great.  I had a caller at my work go on and on about how wonderful I am and how good I made her feel.  She went on to say many nice things about me and I never knew someone that I didn’t even know could be so kind, full of love and emotion, full of God, peace, and light and appreciate what I do for a living.  All I was doing was my job but she told me that I did my job with love and asked to speak to my supervisor.

Thank you to this stranger that made my day, I know tomorrow will be better because it has renewed my faith in people- there are really great people out in this world.  It made my heart feel all warm and fuzzy.



Writing Challenge ~ Day 7: Time Travel

Day 7.  A time traveler offers to kidnap your child self so you can raise him/her.  Do you do it?

My first instinct is to say YES so I can nurture that little hurt wounded bird BUT my life was/is a blessing.  I love my parents and they did the best they possibly could with what they had.  They were both raised strict Catholic and had 12 kids.  I have 6 sisters and 5 brothers.  I didn’t get much 1 on 1 attention ~ I got plenty of love and affection from my mom because she was a SAHM.  My dad was working his tail off to support 12 kids (+2 of my nieces from my oldest sister) and didn’t take any hand outs.

Although I suffer from PTSD which stems from my childhood, I wouldn’t trade my life events for anything because they turned me into the person I am today.  I love my mom and dad and wouldn’t want to be raised by anyone else.  Sure, it took me longer to get where I am but I’m here and I’m ahead of the game.  Some people are so stuck in their ways that they never evolve.  Some people never change, never apologize, never try harder everyday to be a better person, they have no sense of self-awareness or their affect on others either for the good or the bad.  I am one that truly evolves every single day for the better.

If I turned out differently I might not have met my husband or had my 3 beautiful children.  I am right where I want to be.  I’m working hard and so is my husband but other than that, we are tight and have an amazing family dynamic that I love and wouldn’t want to ever lose.  So, no ~ even though part of the thought process of raising myself is tempting but I am who I am for a reason, God made me this way and He’s always had my back growing up.  I’m lucky to be alive- He has saved me and made me whole again.  Better late than never.



The Black Cat Blue Sea Award ♥


I was tagged by the lovely You Are Not Alone In This World page.  Thank you for the nomination!  Go ahead and check out her blog by clicking on her blog name 🙂  Let’s go ahead and started!


  • Anybody nominated can nominate eight other bloggers.
  • The nominee answers three questions posed by the nominator.
  • The questions you ask while nominating can be any three questions.

If any of the questions asked are offensive or the nominee simply does not want to answer, the nominee does not have to answer them to earn the award.


You Are Not Alone In This World’s questions:

My Questions For My Nominees: 

  1. What is your top overplayed song at the moment? You know the one that is probably getting on everyone’s nerves, but you’re still rocking out.   That would have to be “Confident” by Demi Lovato.  I love this song.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cwLRQn61oUY
  2. What is your favorite quote at the moment? Who’s it by? “Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self.”
    -Cyril Connolly
  3. If you could go back 10 years in your life and making a different decision that you know would alter the present, would you change it, or keep it the same?  Absolutely not.  I know I have made some bad decisions and mistakes in my life (a lot actually) but I wouldn’t change a thing because I learned from them and have applied them to my life these days.  I feel as though I had to learn things the hard way quite often but that’s what God’s plan was for me and I’m still learning to this day.  I wouldn’t change a thing because I love my family and friends just the way they are.


My Questions For My Nominees: 

  1. Finish this sentence, “If I had the courage, I would…..”
  2. What is your guilty pleasure?
  3. Something that never fails to make you feel better?



I’d like to nominate:


Camellias Cottage

Beauty Beyond Bones

Confessions of a Reborn Girl

The Eyes in the Back of My Head

Honest Me 363




I’d also like to nominate anyone that wants to participate!  Let me know if you want to play along 🙂


Writing Challenge ~ Day 6: Note to self.

Day 6.  Write a letter to your 5-year-old self.


It was not your fault and has nothing to do with you.  You are a GOOD girl and God loves you more than anything.  Even if you think it’s your fault, God forgives ALL.  You are just as good as every other little girl.  You are special and talented ~ just wait until you get older to see all of the talents you will have, or how great of a wife and mother you are going to turn out to be.  You have so much to look forward to.  Don’t be afraid because God has your back and he’s stronger than anyone, and he’s there for YOU.

You think you have to be perfect to get into Heaven but the truth is, there are a few different kinds of sins; mortal sins that you do on purpose that get you into hot water, accidental sins that you didn’t mean to hurt anyone, and ones that you do because you are human; you are only a human and God expects you to make mistakes and he forgives you for them.  He just wants you to try to be a good person, which you inherently are, and try to be more like Him everyday.  You are already ok.  What happened to you was wrong and sent you the wrong message but you have no reason to be scared or lonely.  You are good and you are going to go straight up to Heaven because it was not your fault.

You are more than just “cute” – you are bright and smiley, funny, and unique.  You are talented and SMART.  Just keep being yourself and don’t let anyone change you.  You are perfect the way you are.  Love you Annebella, keep on keepn’ on little girl.



Writing Challenge ~ Day 5: If you could start your life over….

Day 5.  If you could start your life over, what three things would you change?

  1. I would want to be in a tighter knit family.  I’m one of 12 kids and it made it harder to connect with my older siblings, especially my brothers.  I would want my elders to explain things better to me; life things.  I’d prefer not to be left to my own devices but rather to have someone guide me and make me feel special.
  2. I would have taken voice lessons and learned to play an instrument.  I played the cello for a few years but took it for granted at a young age and when I broke my arm, I quit.  My mom was so disappointed at the time, and I was so relieved.  These days I regret not having that awesome talent.
  3. Basically, I wish I would have known myself better; had more wisdom at a younger age and not have to learn so many of life lessons the hard way.  It’s been a long slow process of “growing up” – I think I’m finally there or getting close to where I feel comfortable in my own skin and and standing firmly on both my feet, on my own.  I just wish this could have been me in my 20’s rather than in my 40’s.  Hey, at least I evolved at all, right?  Right.



Writing Challenge ~ Day 4: Dying

Day 4.  What scares you the most about dying?

I believe in everlasting life with Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior after death.  I believe I will be reunited with those loved ones that have gone before me.

I’m not scared to die.  I’m more sad about it.  I would miss my family and friends so much but know I’d meet up with them again one day.  I am so grateful for all of my blessings and this blessed life I am able to lead.  I love my family and friends so much and am thankful to have such a great life.

I know there will be no pain and no anxiety involved.  I know I will just fall into the loving arms of my Father.  I do, however want to live until I’m well into my 90’s.  I love life and don’t want to be pulled from it too soon.  This I pray in his name.