Writing Challenge #3: Day 31: Epilogue: Write a letter to yourself.

Dear Self,

You are okay.  You might not think you are at times but I guarantee that you are.  You “overthink” and that can be your worst enemy.  It’s a form of worry that just wastes precious energy.  Try to remember catching yourself doing this and correct it when it happens.  Positive thoughts, positive life.  Also, why worry or over-think?  There are some things in life that you simply cannot change no matter how much you chew on it.  Let it go.

WHY are you so hard on yourself?  You are a child of God.  You are a gift full of potential.  Every time you put yourself down that is Satin speaking and getting the better of you.  You are not as hard on anyone else you know as you are to yourself.  It’s not fair, it’s not right, and it’s not realistic.  You cannot hold yourself up to perfectionist standards- that’s like an airbrushed photograph- perfect and lovely, but not real.  Be kind to yourself and love yourself the way God does.  Love yourself the way your parents do.  Love yourself the way you love your own children, family, and friends and then you’ll begin to see love blossom.

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Rely more on the Lord, turn to him in your time of need because he’s there around the clock and he always listens.  Sometimes things take time, but be patient and pray.  Pray for his love and guidance.  Pray for his understanding and forgiveness.  Forgive others most importantly.  Love with an open heart and learn to forgive fully.  Hold no grudges, they only serve to hurt your heart.  Remember that if you want God to forgive you, you MUST learn to fully forgive others for their trespasses against you.  It’s the only way to be free.

Spend more time getting back to the “old” Annebella of yesteryear.  The care-free one that goofed off and laughed a lot more.  Draw and paint more, walk in nature, take the dogs for more walks, and find your center.  Take time for yourself.  Life is short and it goes by wayyyy too fast- take time to smell the roses.

Stay in your own lane.  Mind your own business.  Do not get sucked in to other people’s drama.  THAT is not your circus, not your monkeys – just be yourself and do what you do best.  Smile and try like crazy to stay positive.

Work hard and don’t let others at work get you down.  You are too good for that.  Just because someone else wants to see you down doesn’t mean you have to let them beat you.  It is what it is, and there are better things waiting for you around the corner.  Remember to pray for that person, she is sad and lonely otherwise she wouldn’t be acting this way to begin with.  Pray that God can open her heart and fulfill her.

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Turn your anxiety, depression, OCD, and PTSD over to God.  When you are at your lowest remember that you are NOT alone.  Reach out for help if necessary and remember that “this too shall pass”.  It always does.  It may not feel like it at the time, but it’s a dark rain cloud that will clear to sunnier skies.  Rely and call upon your friends; that love and cherish you.  Call on your husband for reassurance and call your daughters!  Reach out to others you know that have mental illness and don’t feel worthless or inadequate.  You are perfect just the way you are!

Enjoy life, you only have one to live.  Sincerely,

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