Dreary gloomy dark rainy cold… and that’s just how I feel. I can offer no explanation- all I can feel is pain and loneliness. It hits from out of nowhere and I’m all alone. There is nothing anyone can say or do- I’m just left with sheer and utter pain. I am as ugly on the outside as I feel on the inside. Now, I lay here curled up in a ball praying for it to pass so I can get some rest from my brain that won’t stop churning.